First off let me preface this by saying NO…I am NOT preggo. I don’t plan on letting my husband put his fruit in my loom until next year. However, I can admit that I have a more than slight case of baby fever…and it’s because everyone and they momma are currently knocked up! LOL. I swear every time I turn around someone I know is pregnant, or I’m running into a stranger that is pregnant. It is starting to get scary, almost like pregnancy is following me waiting on its chance to pounce LOL.
Even though what I just said is true, I have definitely had some hang ups regarding Baby #2. I’m sure that every first time mom (technically I am still a first time mom as I only have 1 human at the moment) has her hangups about when to have another kid or if you should. My hang up is that yes I want to have another one, but I am not sure if im ready.
The reason I want to have another kid is because I don’t want my little dude to be an only child. I am an only child, and although I loved it, there are some pros to having siblings. The main pro to having a sibling in my opinion is that there is always someone there for you. Yes my family is most definitely there for me, and SOME of my cousins and I are like brothers and sisters (and some I want to beat up like a stranger LOL), but I can see the difference that having a sibling makes when I look at those with siblings. I want that for Bubba.
The reason I am unsure if I am ready is because I have the possibility of having TWINS! Yup…you read that right, TWINS! That’s bullsh*t I know. It’s my mother’s fault, as she is a twin and twins run in our family, but that doesn’t make me any more willing and ready to have 2 humans at one time. I am 5’3” on a very straight spine kinda day, and I don’t know where the f*ck twins would fit in me! I assume that one kid would be in my belly…and the other would be in my soul, as that is the only space left for them. LOL. Not to mention that Bubba was a big baby, 8lbs, and I can’t see myself having two more of those big babies at the same time. It;s too much!
The craziest part of all this is that I have been having dreams that I was preggo with twins or triplets! *shivers in horror* I just know that I am gonna be the one in the family who has twins. I can feel it in my bones, and I am NOT ready! (I don’t really think anyone is ever ready for twins, but you get what I mean.) Mentally and physically I am unprepared for holding 2 lives in my belly, but I feel like it’s gonna happen to me. F*ckin sucks dude…but hopefully I have 2 more boys, as I am even more unprepared to have a mini me!
Well that is my issue with Baby #2. If you can relate or have something you would like to share with me, feel free to leave it in the comments below.