Ok so if you read my post on how I was “Getting Back To Sexy,” and I am here to update you on that. It is not going well. LOL. I can honestly say that I have tried to do it, but at the same time I haven’t tried. It is a very complicated endeavor and I ended up having an epiphany because of it. First let me explain to you why it hasn’t been working out.
Working, Wifing, Womaning, and Moming is tiring as f*ck! I mean if it’s not one thing, it’s another. I mean I don’t have time to worry about working out when I’m just trying to not fall asleep at work or the wheel or while watching my kid. And those women who do have time do all of that and still work out…youre the sh*t! I mean you must have the secret to never-ending energy…which I don’t have…but I need it. I feel like if I try to add-on extra energy sucking activity…I may just keel over and die.
Now I know some of you “workout mamas” may think that im just complaining and need to get over myself. To that I say…BLEH! I can complain all I f*ckin want! It’s not like I have ever had the need to workout prior to having my little love lump. Now that I do…things have changed sooooo much. It’s not as easy, and I swear I don’t want to even be bothered. That makes the struggle so real. I swear my motivation is crazy lacking, but when I do have it, I try to work out. Now on to my revelation.
When trying to workout, I came to realize two things. Those things are:
- I hate working out.
- I’m f*cking perfect the way I am!!!!!’
I looked at myself in the mirror the other day and I realized somethings.
- My hips are curvy
- My boobs are perky
- My legs are thick
- My ass is nice and round
- My skin is clear
- My smile is beautiful
- And my eyes have life in them (even if I do have the occasional bags under them lol)
Pretty much what I’m saying is that I am f*cking GORGEOUS! Yes there are some imperfections on my body and things that I want to fix…but at the end of the day, I am still a woman. A desirableness woman at that. I mean as long as my husband isn’t complaining and still trying to get me in between the sheets. I am A-OK. Who the f*ck cares if I don’t look like what i use to?! I birthed me a baby after-all.
Yes I will still try to lose some weight, and yes I will still try and tone up my stomach, but at the end of the day, I have a different body. The body of a woman an mother…not a girl. I refuse to conform to anyone’s standard of beauty but my own! I look good as I am in all my thickness, and I am STILL killing the SEXY game. Having a baby and gaining some extra weight has not stopped me from being attractive to my husband and other people. It has only stopped me from being attractive to myself. My view of myself was the problem from the beginning, not my body, and I have fixed it.
I am happy with who I am, and know that I will have good days and bad days, but I’d rather be me any day that some fake Barbie looking replica b*tch that a lot of women are trying to look like these days. So…pretty much what I have to say to anyone who is reading this and having issues with their appearance…STOP IT! Big or Fat, Small or Skinny…worship your f*cking body…it’s the only one you’ve got!
What are some things you like about your body? Leave it in the comments below.